I usually love Easter. Last year, it was on Easter that I got engaged! And in addition to that, it was my first time serving the residents at PATH (People Assisting the Homeless), and it was a wonderful day to end the day, serving others.
For some reason this year I'm not quite in the same frame of mind. I didn't feel as celebratory as I usually do on Easter Sunday, and the crowds of people at church overwhelmed, instead of encouraged, me.
Could it be after all these years that the magic and joy of the resurrection has somehow lost its luster on me?
Now, don't get me wrong. It is not that I am taking what the resurrection of Jesus means for me for granted. Everyday, I am thankful that Jesus died for my sins so that I can live. But this year the emotions and the excitement that usually accompanies this holiday died down a bit for me.
This just reminds me all the more that I can't base my faith on simply my emotions about a holiday. No matter how wonderful something is, the repetition gets well, boring. It's just part of being human.
But what doesn't change for me is the steadfastness of my convictions and commitment to live a life following Jesus. I am only able to do this because of Him. If it was just based on emotions such as excitement, I'd be bored already.
Luckily, Jesus HAS risen (and it has nothing to do with how I feel about it).
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Might have something to do with being so sick for the last month leading up to Easter. :(
feelings/crowds: i know how you mean.